My curiousity feelings

Assalammualaikum semuaaa .
Dah lama rasanyaa kita tak bersua muka.. :) Rindu pulak rasanyaa.
Ni kan kita dah bersua muka . HEHEHE

Okeyy . today nak cakap something .
Should I be worry about my curiousity feeling?
I dah lama dah nak facebook bf i.. Tapi I malas nak kacau privacy dia since he is not yet my hubby.
Here the things is I was shocked actually when he said that "Kejap kejap I nak padam messenger"..
I was like what ? Seriously ?
I tak jangka yang semua tu macam tu. I tak jangka yg dia akan cakap macam tu. Dulu, dia mrah I cakap camtu siap cakap I ada orang lain .I tahu i ni sensitive but come on. U dont have to react macam tu.. Kalau tak nak I tahu, diam kan je laa . Lepas bg detail about your fb, delete it. Tapi takleh jugakk..Sooner or later, I tetap akan tahu jugak..

Kenapa dia tak bgtahu eh pasal dia ada facebook dengan orang lain ?Senang kan kalau nak buat I faham.. I tengok tadi yg semua recent msej macam dh hilang je. Mungkinlah.. Gap time dari last msej sampai yesterday macam dh hilang je...

Bila dia cakap camtu, dia buat I fikir yang dia ada orang lain. I cant think like that since I put my trust on him, but if one day he makes me regret with my trust that I give to him. There is no more second chance.
I tak nak kongkong hidup dia. I bukanlah nak bandingkan dia dengan I. I takut if one day dia dengan orang lain. Dia pun pernah cakap yg dia takut I dengan orang lain. I cemburu dia msej dengan orang lain. Tapi I kuatkan jugak hati I. I nak jaga hati dia, I tahu I ni tak lah secantik orang, tak seputih orang lain, tak sepandai orang lain. But please, I do have heart like others.

Bf I takdelah marah I nak msej lelaki lain (maybelah ). Tapi I nak dia tahu dri mulut I sndiri yg I msej dengan someone, yg I berborak dengan lelaki tempet keje I.. I tak nak dia fikir bukan2 masa I bz practical..

Ahhh . Go to hell with it.
As long as I still have his loyalty, I trust him. Once he break the trust, there is no more second chance.. I dont care even I love him so much. I tahu manusia boleh berubah, But I cant tell what will happen when my heart broken.